Lazy. Lazy. Lazy. I’ve been lazy lately. Too lazy, and I’m tired of it. What I am talking about is my effort to learn to speak Bisaya. I have not been doing a good job lately, and I can blame nobody but myself. Yesterday was my weekly lesson, and I am having a hard time with my vocabulary. The reason is because I am not studying enough! Who am I kidding? Certainly I am not fooling myself. I am finding lately that I am struggling even for words that I used to have readily at hand. Now, I have to think to remember them. That means only one thing: I am not reviewing my vocabulary often enough. I also am not making enough effort to learn the new words that I need to learn every week.
So, do you think that my teacher is fooled when she comes to my house weekly to give me my lesson? When I have to think for a few seconds to come up with words that I am supposed to already know, or when she asks me words that I was supposed to learn over the past 7 days, she obviously knows that I am not studying enough. Bebe, my teacher, is an old hand at teaching language, so she is not fooled. She knows the score. By not being serious enough about my studies, I am not hurting anybody but myself.
I am at a really hard part of learning the language right now. I am learning the “connectors” – i.e. however, even if, neither nor… there are literally dozens of such words used to connect different parts of sentences to each other. Problem is that there will be sometimes 5 or 6 different bisaya words that basically mean the same thing in English. However, in Bisaya they have slightly different meanings. If you want to say “however” there may be 5 or 6 different ways to say it, and each has a slightly different connotation. Because of this, I am having a very hard time learning the words. I mean, if you learn that one word means “however” and then you have 5 other words that mean the same thing, it is difficult to memorize them! At least it is for me.
Well, because of the difficulty of the current vocabulary, I am not spending enough time reviewing my older vocabulary words that I learned over the past year. I really have to change my study habits. I need to increase the amount of time that I study in order to reinforce my previous learning. I am not spending enough time studying, and I need to.
Funny thing is, I enjoy speaking Bisaya. I am at the point where I can go around town, and I can communicate in almost any situation, and I enjoy that. There is nothing quite as satisfying as seeing the surprise on somebody’s face when you start speaking Bisaya to them! It’s very enjoyable, and I often get compliments from people on the street when they hear my language skills. When you get to the point where you can communicate, and people are complimenting you, you tend to get complacent. It’s like “I can speak Bisaya already, why should I study so much?” That is not a good hole to get into.
As of today, I am re-committing myself to more studying, more use of the language, and being more serious! I have to do it. Learning the Bisaya that I have learned has improved my life here, and made my life so much more enjoyable. I have to keep it up more, though!
Bebe, if you read this, I am sorry that I have been slacking off a bit lately. I’ll do better. I promise.